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As I sit here with a pile of homework so high that I've got no idea where to start, I realize how much life has changed for me these last couple of months. I'm a far cry from the anti-social recluse that I was in secondary school.

I'm still prone to days where I'd like nothing more than to curl up and die and hence spend those days brooding and generally unwilling to interact. But the people around me now react differently and I've (hopefully) reacted in accordance to their actions. In retrospect, they are one of the best things that's happened to me in a long time.

My secondary school class mates would have reacted negatively to my negative behaviour and of course, in this case, negative times negative do not give you a positive. I don't know what's different about my school mates now -- Maybe they're older, maybe it's because I'm in a Christian college, maybe it's because I just haven't caught on to the gossiping behind my back. I don't know, but I'm glad for it. They allow me the space to be myself without enstranging me. They don't mind that I spend more time with my teammates than them, something I feel infinitely guilty for.

Rhys said I've been looking happier lately. I hadn't even noticed but I thought about it and I have to admit that I really am happier with everything and everyone around me. It's not a big drastic change... but it's significant enough. I still get called up on my blank, scary face though, mostly from the bowlers =.=

I had my best friends and close friends beside me all along, Sarah-ann, Lizzy, Rhys, Christian, Yuin, Kim, Trish. And to them I am eternally grateful. They're individuals that have made a great impact on my life. But right now, I'd just like to pay tribute to my classmates at SAJC for being special people to me.

I am enjoying a rather full life right now and while stressful, it has been highly rewarding and I am indubitably most blessed for everything I have in life. Right now, Common Test 1 is over and I'm still recieving back my grades.

Knowledge & Inquiry - C
Math - U(ngraded)
Literature - TBA
Economics - TBA
Chinese - A

Evidently, I still have a long way to go in terms of academics. I've fallen back in Math and Econs and KI and Lit take up so much time. Bowling, likewise, has a lot more for me to work on, but my teammates make it worthwhile. Now is the period of the handing over of leadership from the year 2s to the year 1s and I can only hope that next year will be a better year for all of us. The year 2s will be horribly, horribly missed (understatement) and it's hard to imagine school life without them.

I will also be taking my music theory exam at the end of the year while my piano will be taken next year. I foresee a jam-packed schedule the beginning of next year. Family is the same as always, but I am learning patience that I draw from my older siblings who have no doubt grown very much from the irritating brothers that made my life hell when I was younger.

And so ends my reflections of the year so far, in regards to school. Hopefully I have managed to successfully convey my thoughts and feelings as I realize how much more there is to life and how much more I have to learn, experience and grow. I'm still a child in so many ways! And also. I hope this explains why I haven't been around these past months, having been caught up so fully with life and its emotional handluggage.

With much love, I applaud you if you've read the whole thing.